Writing and Expressing your views

You are to me my lifeline

my security.

That panics me.

Iodine never wanted to swear again that much

Iodine got ache too badly the last time.

Iodine swore I'd never make it again,

never allow the trust out of my hands

into person elses.



And yet I've done it

and now I'm afraid

of what you will make with it,

of what I'll make because of it.



My first inherent aptitude is, as always,

to run, to hide,

to protect myself

from the injury Iodine cognize will come.

I don't cognize when or how,

just that it will, sometime.



I wanted to protect myself

to construct the walls around me

but you wouldn't allow me.

You smashed bricks as I set them in place

you refused to allow me close myself in,

so now what?

Where make I travel now?

I experience lost,defenceless,

my concealment topographic point is no more.



My walls are broken

and I'm now afraid to reconstruct the walls

afraid I won't see you if I do

or anyone else

and I'm not certain if that's really what I desire to do.



astatine modern times it is.

I desire to close myself away and hide,

and yet I desire to be out,

to mix

to talk

to share.

And I fault you

for not letting me before shaking me up

for refusing to allow me retreat.



And yet I cognize that if I were not ready

you could not have got got got got reached me

no 1 could.

I would have protected myself better

I wouldn't have risked

or grown.



I desire to curse word you and give thanks you

at the same time.

I desire to express joy with delight

at the things I've seen

and establish with you

and outcry in desperation for what will not be.



You have opened me to be

what, I'm not yet sure

but I cognize that I am stronger

because of you

braver, because of you

more, because of you.